I'm growing old...er

I'm a year older... yeaaaaah. Haha can you hear the sarcasm while reading that sentence. Celebrating my birthday this year caused me to think about my life choices. One thing I realized is that you are alone in this world. Each thought is yours. Yes, you may share your life with others but ultimately you are your own person, you make decisions, personal decisions everyday.

I took myself out for a movie on my birthday. Yes I really did. And no I wasn't feeling sorry for myself. Every few years ( not sure the number, too much maths) my birthday coincides with Mothers Day. Don't get me wrong I love my mother. But I look forward to my birthday every year. Its my day. So I celebrated the night before with friends and gave her the day. Yet, by the end of the day not wanting to disturb anyone I solely celebrated my day. I watched the movie "I feel pretty", starring Amy Schumer. Its honestly a good movie, well for anyone that has self image issues. Since we're being honest I don't think I am beautiful. I feel that I'm okay. So watching the movie struck a true nerve. Being alone in a cinema with three other couples is uncomfortable but it's raw. Its allowing yourself a bit of grace. Allowing yourself to be true to yourself, laugh when its funny, leave if you want to or choose to stay till the end of the credits. Yes I may have looked like a loner but I was freaken happy man!

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